Squeaky-Squishy

I'm not going to be okay Yesterday was different. Today's a new day And it all changed -

I wish I could be strong enough To ride this storm for you But my life has been a storm of disastrous proportions And I just can't pull it through I wish you could be brave enough To pull me upon the ship But your strength has waned from fighting the waves And you just can't pull me too I wish I could be fiery enough To wait until the new day We all know that, eventually, storms end But this storm is nothing new I wish you could be bold enough To push the storm away But even though you never meant it to last You're hiding in the storm, aren't you.

A moment here with you Could be everything I need And if you close your eyes Then maybe I could make you see That a moment here with me Could be fleeting like you fear Or a moment here together Could be a moment that lasts forever A moment here with you Is all I'm asking for I want you by my side And I want to share my all But then came all the hurt And our moment fell apart And now my trust is weary, Worn and dusted like my heart. A moment building up, Recovering our tune A melody so sweet But my soul forewarns the doom Because a moment by your side Is all I ever asked you for And now you cannot take me there - The hurt grows even more.

So what, Let him leave me After all, I'm used to being left. I could leave first I know it But I'd be leaving me bereft. So what Let me leave first, Let me say that I was through But in that, I just know it - That I can't be through so soon. And if I give up, Then I give up. But I don't know how to let it end, And if it ends And it's over How can I still call him my friend? And if I end it Then it's over And I know he won't come back But would I want that? I want a fighter Someone who loves me back.

There's two ribbons, dancing on the wind One's silken and spotted, everything fun The other's lace, and flying, as if on the run. Two thin ribbons, twisting in the air A beautiful dance to which none compare Twin thin ribbons collide. Two long ribbons, entangled in each other They knot up together, to be never undone And they fly with the golden sun. Tangled, entwined, these ribbons like vines Are subject to whims of the wind But the wind doesn't care for the destined. Two thin ribbons, suddenly separate Grasping for the ends within reach - But they just can't reach. Two different ribbons, dancing on the wind They fly as if they're on th

I thought you were waiting For a question or a sign But what I didn't know is You weren't waiting to be mine. You told me it was fine And I could trust you told the truth You said it was inevitable But I found your truth uncouth. But because you told me It's a matter of just time Even though it wasn't moving I stood, waiting, in your line. But now I see what's happening And I know I'll wait too long And I already have, but I just don't know How to find you wrong. So every day I'm waking and I tell you I am fine... But then I saw those messages And I crumbled - I crumbled - in that line.

It was a mistake, I scream. I try not to breathe I cry I lean - And yet I am not leaning. It was a mistake, I gasp, And I try not to ask Forgive me I rasp I know it's such a stupid task. It was a mistake I beg, And yet I have nothing left So I know In the end You'll leave me Again.

I've been frozen since the day you left me, Still crying on that airplane seat Staring out that window at your silhouette Until you turned your back on me Each day that's passed feels like yesterday Back to the yesterday I last saw you The movie we watched - forever unfinished Just like our own love story. You kissed my lips, we whispered our love And I held on for dear life But I knew I'd never see you again It was written all over your eyes.

I try, and I try, and I try I'm so sorry. All I ever meant to do Was keep on, keep on Loving you All I wanted to protect Was your heart. I didn't Want it wrecked. I'm sorry that it got away And that I somehow hurt you Anyway. And I'm sorry that I tried so hard And that I watched you shatter Into shards. I lied to myself, to keep me safe, And I turned down risks, said Just have faith. Said things will work out in the end But we all know those words were Just pretend. And now I just don't know how I'm meant to turn things Back around. I've been so scared, for so, so long I don't know how to trust I'm wrong When I say that you don't wan

To my dearest friend, I've missed you It's been so long Since I kissed you And to say so wrong Just to touch you And I cannot bear Not to feel you My dearest friend, How I need you All my darkest secrets To conceal you Please don't hold me Won't reveal you Since they told me time Would've healed you Hey my dearest friend, Now I see you And I really shouldn't Want to be you But you whisper close Hey I can heal you But I should've known It wasn't real.